spontaneous decision

okay, i'll begin this announcement with a story. we watched adocumentary called "sick" tonight, about the s&m performance artist bob flanagan, who suffered all his life with cystic fibrosis.
 
(CF, ifyou don't know, is an illness in which your lungs slowly gather more and more mucus and you generally suffocate to death).
 
in the movie there was also a teenager who also had CF. the documentarians caught up with her a few years after the film was complete. she was married, still sick, but still alive. she mentioned that there was still so much she wanted to do, including have children and raise a family.
 
after the movie i was smoking on the porch w/dustin and saying how "if i had CF there is no way i'd have kids, b/c i would never want my kids to see me die a slow and horrible death."
 
then i realized i had a cigarette in my hand.
then i decided that i could just quit.
 
so i have (again). and i realized also that, the more people i told IMMEDIATELY, the better my chances. so be aware, friends and family, that i may be a horrible bee-atch in the next few days, but w/abbey out of town, the timing is right.
 
now i'm off to find my nicotine inhaler.