birthdays and whatnot

a great birthday was had -- i will update with photos soonish. after i sleep. sleep is important. and i may as well tell the blogworld that i had a miscarriage. it's been an emotional couple of weeks... complete fear overshadowed by complete excitement overshadowed by sadness and disappointment. but that is how it works sometimes, i suppose. like i said before, you are all with me for the whole journey, it just happens that this particular journey is shorter than expected (and wanted). but we'll try sometime in the future when life has calmed down more. but yeah, it's hard. but we'll be okay and we're getting through it.