the things we do

it's funny to think about what we do for the people we love. i have the most amazing friends and family, i would do anything for any one of them. i don't think this makes me extraordinary or anything, because i like to think that other people are the same way.

i like to give people the benefit of the doubt. i like to think that no one will intentionally fuck someone else over.

but i'm not naive, i'm not stupid, i'm aware that shitty things happen all the time in this world. people are getting screwed on a constant basis in life and it makes no sense and it's certainly not fair.

so what can be done to prevent it? not a thing, i don't think. as nervewracking as it seems and as much as it makes me want to have a panic attack, there is nothing to be done. if i were independently wealthy, i'd hand out dollar bills to people i see do nice things. people who let you merge on the freeway even in thick traffic, people who let pedestrians cross the street, people who help change a flat tire. i would reward these people with money.

i've thought about rewarding them with ribbons -- little blue ribbons that say "decent human" on them -- but money talks, doesn't it?



then i'd be known as that "money lady," where if you do a good deed and she sees, you are rewarded. then everyone would be working extra hard to NOT be assholes.