Tuesday, January 18, 2005

back to the lunchtime blog

when you are no longer a smoker, you find that your lunch break is actually quite lengthy. so lengthy that when you blog, you put your feet up on a chair so that you can move the typewriter into your lap and be all comfy. i'm all comfy.
well i'm on ye olde day seven of not smoking and it's going alright today, i am sure that i'll have a burning urge to put my head through a window at some point, as that urge hits about once or twice a day -- but maybe with enough of my delightful Grandma's Oatmeal Raisin cookie, i can keep that horrible urge at bay.
what's tough especially is having it in my mind that i am not a smoker anymore. i kind of feel like when i'm not smoking, i'm not a non-smoker, i just a smoker in denial -- a fraud, if you will. even last year when i quit for four whole months, i still felt like a smoker the entire time. so getting out of that mindset will be what really keeps me from smoking again.
the quitnet site has been really helpful, and there are some nice folks who will post reassuring messages on the forum when you type in things like, oh, for example:
"if i don't smoke i'm going to put my head through that window!" they assure you that no, putting your head through that window won't actually keep your cravings away.
my blog is a bore since i've quit smoking. that's all i talk about...blah blah blah. oh, and a big THANKS to all of you who have ordered cookies through my wee tot -- she's set herself a pretty high goal (250 boxes, down from her ORIGINAL goal of 490) and it's nice that she'll be able to meet it.
word out.

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