working out....

...SUCKS ASS.
and i wish it didn't. but it does. i stepped on that damn machine and said "okay, a half hour should be fine! it will go so quickly! i love exercise! i love getting in shape!"

11 minutes later...

"i hate my life! i need a cigarette! i need better shoes! it's too hot in here! full house is on and its eating my soul! it's 5 a.m....why am i awake?"

so yeah. day 1: not so successful. i'm unusually edgy. okay, maybe not unusually. just edgy. i'll bet it's because i woke up at THREE A.M. and couldn't fall back to sleep. shite.

so tired that my eyes hurt. that's no good. 1 hour and 45 minutes until i take the child to school. maybe after that, i will sleep. hopefully....

i kind of like the idea of jogging: something that is good for you AND masochistic at the same time. i might just be crazy enough to try it.