Monday, August 13, 2007

so tired.

so tired of my head. so fucking tired of things that get stuck and won't go away and this need i have to just weep uncontrollably and at the same time be so fucking angry that i can't stand it. to not be good enough. to not feel good enough. to not be enough of anything. i'm sickened. i'm sad. and i want to scream but i feel like i don't have the right to scream. i want to just become the worst possible version of myself and i hate it.


amycita said...

I feel you chica. This summer I was wondering why I can't even enjoy having the summer off for cripes sake! I don't know what I LIKE b/c I don't really seem to ENJOY much of anything sometimes, y'know? I just muscle through things and then weep and bitch and moan about it. I wonder if I do such a tough and unrewarding job so that I have a real reason for feeling like crap, when in actuality I just feel like crap all the time for no reason. That's my newest theory. Because I have been trying for the life of me to figure out what job I might enjoy doing or what I might ejoy doing with my life and I can't figure it out.

Jege (Jen) said...

I'm in the same boat.